Hey.. Ever had the feeling of deja vu? Its weird. Suddenly hits me outta nowhere that the exact same thing happened in the exact same place at the moment. And when I try to recall what or when it was somehow i'd never quite figure it out. Sometimes, maybe it never did happen before but why that feeling of familiarity i'd never know. Maybe it appeared in my dreams and when it happens in real life, it gives me the feeling that i've exprienced such a thing before. Weird.

Hmm. Many things have been darting around in my head these past few days. Lotsa thoughts and little observations and conclusions about things around me. Pweet.

My cat who had kidney problems earlier went back for a blood test about a week ago. The vet said her kidney is deteriorating despite us putting her on a prescription diet. I don't think she's gonna live very long, I mean, thats according to what my mom seemed to imply. We may even have to put her down. My sister in UK told my mom over the phone today that there was this owner back there who had a cat with the same problem and she refused to put the animal to sleep. So guess what happened, the poor cat had to suffer, threw up blood. Man, i'd rather she go to cat heaven early than cough up her guts. Sick and horrifying. I'll be unable to sleep or eat for a whole week. Yep anyways, i've been really nice to her since then. I'd give her a nice rub everyday. I'm sad she's going soon. Though i've never been really close to her. She's been with us for bout 8\9 years already. She's family, man! And even though she seems more afraid of me, creeping around suspiciously everytime i'm around. I still love her. I think we all do. I remember those days, the crazy old days. She was sleeping on the rug outside, snoozing like a baby. And i attempted to sneak up and pat her on the head. Silly thing could not discern my good intentions. Ended up jolting up in a snap once my hand came in contact with a few hairs, mauled my foot pretty badly. Haha. There's a slight whitish spot there now that reminds me of this incident. I had a good laugh when my mom said she looks like a clown because her nose is totally black, like this big splat of a mistake on her face. Ha! That reminds me of momo, when i said her eyebrows were all joined in a straight line. You know my mom said ever since momo left, she hasn't been eating well. Cats have feelings too you know. They know what you mean when you say something to them. Its going to be hard when the time comes to say goodbye. Its always painful. Today she looked so tired, lonely, sad. She used to run upstairs everytime my maid comes up to put our clean clothes into the wardrobe, cos somehow its this coocoo habit of hers to follow the maid around. Well, she doesn't anymore. She used to go crazy and chase all the 'little intruders' out of the house (if you know what i'm referring to). Now she can't do that either. Her kidneys are 20% functional. I really wish i could do something for her and she would understand that she has been a blessing to all of us.