I am so troubled right now. And why am I not surprised there isn't anyone around to help me through this. What could they do anyway. Say awww, that's real bad, don't think about it too much, oh dear, that is bad, pray about it. Then walk away and forget about it. Yaar those are real friends there. Why am I still here I wonder.

If God is someone who likes us to be honest then he is the most awesomest person ever. Because that's what I like too. Honesty. If you don't want to listen. Then don't pretend like you care. Drop the bombs on me now.

I was watching my current fav Jdrama on TV. Its amazing these Jdramas are. I'm beginning to think only the Japanese know human emotions. And how to handle them with TLC. They seem to be the only people who understand more than anyone else. I think if I had a family next time, I'd definitely want it to be like in JDramas.

I am so not going online shopping ever again after this nasty incident. I am going to stick my head where I can see where I put my money. Like REAL shopping, at least they usurp my money in a less ruthless manner. Or stick my head where people can't swing choppers at it. Like in irc, watching anime, playing PS games, studying japanese, working at PP, drawing characters, applying for scholarship, modelling furniture on 3DS Max, watching Aijou Ippon, watching Desperate Housewives, watching Project Runway, reading memoirs of a geisha, reading 40 days of purpose, watching the WC on tvunetworks, reading manga, tidying my room, listening to my mp3 player, listening to my FFXII First Press Limited Edition OST, plan itinerary on the UK trip. gosh. God is a wonderful person. He has given me so many things to do.

Too bad I'm startin to think he is THE only wonderful person around. That can get kinda depressing thinking about that.