With my driving test coming up in one week's time and with the seemingly not so competant instructor I have (I'm taking private, that should explain everything) who makes me stop at the roadside so just he can jump out and buy his breakfast, lunch or kopi and who talks on his handphone frequently while I'm on the road having just enough time to scream at me when I'm in any sort of trouble and who calls me a slow and blur person, and with myself having driving lessons two times a week up from once a week, and considering how much my mom is paying for lessons and how much time I have to sacrifice for the usual ol' go straight turn right turn left u-turn crap, I am almost at my wit's end. Actually, I've already crossed the end. It's annoying having to go through all the crap above, but it's just infuriating to hear your own mom agree with the instructor and talk about you in earshot over the phone saying the same things he calls you when you're driving. I can't help but scream everytime something like this happens. More likely directed at the mother, since she is the one who falls ill for such unwholesome behaviour. I don't think you'd like to hear your own daughter on the phone associating adjectives like VERY slow, VERY dumb, VERY outdated, not knowing what is going on most of the time, does not even know how to use the remote control, VERY gossipy over the phone, talks very loudly regardless of all life around her, not to mention slow on my allowance all the time, with people such as yourself so it's not very much to ask for you to be a little more considerate about other people's feelings especially when they're from the same family does it? It's probably because of growing up in such an environment that I'm someone who is acute to the things that are going on around me, including the possible implications of actions and who might become affected by them, in positive and negative ways. I would outrightly say I hate people who have no manners, who are rude, insensitive and ignorant, and who do or say things out of their own interest without first acknowledging the opinions or feelings of those around him/ her. It is really this kind of action that pushes me over the limits, and drives me to burst out in rage because I absolutely cannot contain such behaviour. It is so unbecoming. And because of that, I constantly have to suffer the drawback of such outbursts - the guilt that comes afterward. Sometimes I wonder whether it is a kind of cunning mechanism to get people like us to stay quiet under verbal slander.